Alexiel’s Heaven

There is one part of Aikido that is starting to leave me at least a little frustrated: the ki tests. With the techniques, I just know that it will take forever to internalise the movements and coming to terms with the subtleties. Rolling and falling for me are a process so complex that it seems natural to keep trying time and again before there are any noticeable improvements; furthermore, I have to master my hesitation each time I try to roll from a higher position. But just finding a stable, relaxed stance should be easy by all means. Yeah, well – think again. I keep feeling like I’m just a mass of knotted and tensed-up muscles falling over at the slightest touch. *sighs*

There was, however, a day my stance was relatively firm. That time, I had been thinking about relaxing and trying to stay centered and so on all day. While I was driving to work, while I was working at the computer, while I was drinking a coffee with my colleagues. These past two weeks, I have not thought about it that often, as my mind is occupied more than usual with all the things to do, decision to make, appointments to remember etc.). Maybe that is the reason why I don’t feel any advancement right now? So: keep thinking about it more! =)